Current mood:	happy
Current music:	ocean colour scene....mechanical wonder

is what you want exactly what you need?
another very successful weekend is in the books...

...'tho it didn't start off too promising, as i was suddenly overcome with the sniffles sometime saturday afternoon, leaving me drippy and coughy all night. i placed phone calls to see if anyone wanted to go dancing with me that night, but everyone seemed to have already made plans. but y'know what? it really worked out for the best. on the advice of one such 'friend' who couldn't (wouldn't?) go dancing with me, i went to blockbuster and ended up renting fast times at ridgemont high (which i had not yet seen.)(people keep telling me i need to be more '80s', but i don't know why 'cos i'm already so fucking cool as it is)...and the movie was good, but not as spectacular as i was led to believe it was.

so instead of going out saturday night, i made plans with my newfound friends to hang out yesterday afternoon and then we'd go to the glass house later that night to see international noise conspiracy (who apparently have a video on mtv...which is disturbing to me, but i don't know why)...but when i got to the glass house at three the sign outside said they were already sold out, which is very surprising 'cos the glass house is a pretty big place which almost never sells out.

but even this little bit of misfortune didn't deter the seven of us from having a really good time hanging out outside amongst the crowd of ticket-holders and non-ticket-holders. one friend was on the guest-list and so she and her plus-one took turns going in and out, exchanging wristbands each time. i didn't end up going in, which was fine, 'cos i had a jolly good time being outside staring at all the pretty boys and girls whilst they chatted and smoked (inc attracts a very smartly dressed, well coiffed crowd, with me fitting in oh-so-well. ho ho ho.) i even spotted an old cafe bleu friend with whom i've danced with many a time and seen at numerous shows, but i've never worked up the nerve to ask her for her phone number. but once we started talking last night (she called me her 'cafe bleu boy', aww) i asked and received. she didn't ask for mine, but i gave it to her anyway. i really hope that we can get together and go dancing soon.

the six other people in the group consisted of two gay boys, one gay girl, and three straight girls. it was brought to my attention later on in the evening that both of the gay boys were very smitten with me. one even went so far as to call me 'fantastic'. aww, i love compliments. but why is it i can only get gay boys to like me? seriously, if i just switched teams, i'd have like, dates lined up until the middle part of next year. hmmmm...

oh but it is good to have friends. friends that are girls. it's just that...now i think i'm starting to like one of them a little, and i'm not so sure that it's such a good idea for me to go down that road...but, we'll see how it all plays out. if she were to feel the same about me, i'd be all for it, but i don't think i want to make an ass out of myself trying to make something happen. so i'll just be content with being the 'nice boy/good guy' that girls like, but don't like in that way.

at least until i figure out how i really feel and if i'm feeling it for the right reasons.

(addendum: i told the girl i have a crush on here at work about the boys who think i'm 'fantastic' and the fact that if i was gay i'd have my pick of hot boys, and she's all 'please don't turn gay, please'. so i said, 'well, i'm going to give it one more year, and then i'm becoming a free agent'. i find it amusing she wants me to stay straight so badly. hmmm...)